i have alott to blog about...48 hours ago i found out that she fall in love with someone else..i dunnoe if i shud be happy or sad..i try nt to think much abt it and lets time take care of this

24 hours ago i was out to celebrate Gavin antonio 16th birthday with P,P,K,A,J,S at manhattan fish market restraunt @clarke quay..the staff there were friendly,every customer tht goes in will be greeted by the whole crew. and gavin arrived abit emo-ish cause someone did nt msg him or kol him. bt thn aft we cut the cake we gave him the biggest suprise, we made his HER sit beside him while K closed his eyes..haha gavin was super shy and than we made hime ride the g max and he proposed to her while he reached the top..looking aat the ride itself was scary enuf.lol. D AND K came to meet us and we chilled a while b4 heading train-ing home. walked with P as we were the only one who got off at sk. reached home arnd 1130. 1hour later thn i promise:P

Today i had s tournament at east coast cage. sadly we were knocked out in the quarters..haiz in between went to chat wif G, and he told me something saddening. wont be right if i reveal it here. but anyways G dunch worry, ur dreams will come true:) his team made it to the semi(best of luck) bus-ed home with team mates and i was dead tired by the time i reach home.dropped by at my gp's house fr a while.
shall upload pics asap.
PLANS FOR TMR
GYM WITH P

PLANS FOR MY LIFE THIS YEAR
START STUDYING!!! FEELING THE PRESSURE

S I DONT BLAME U FOR FALING IN LOVE WITH ANOTHER,BUT THE TRUTH IS I HAVENT FALL OUT OF IT WITH YOU

can anyone tell me the real meaning of life??

i seem to be losing everything,ok maybe i am choosing to lose it so that i can stop toturing myself and more impt those who do care for me. ok i noe i sound emoish and girlish but than i really do not know if wat i did was right or wrong.
nvm the fact that she does not love me or does not find anything in me worthy of loving. i find everything worthy about her..so lets just put it as mine is a one sided love and i assure myself that this one sided love is going to stay wif me for a long long time.
nw that this matter is down.. the next problem is i lost half my friends.. i do treasure them but i guess the way they live and the way i live are diff. it just doesnt match, maybe wat i did was the best fr us..but just rmb guys,we might nt be able to get together again but than nth cn erase wat we did when we were together! wish u all the best.maybe one day i might cross path with u all. all i can do is write it down but i wish there could be something that will erase this burden in my heart but till that day when that miracle happens this burden will be in a place called my heart..i guess this will be and hope this will be the last time i am emo..its time to change path


the time for change has arrived

HELLO PEOPLE
realised hadnt blogged for a long time so since i am free i shall blog

lets talk about the things i did today
-woke up showered and blah blah
-met del,fareez,jason,jia fa @ hougang mall
-went to bugis
-PIERCED MY EYEBROW!!! it caused 30 bucks!!
-met gavin
-dinner at zam zam(service was horrible)
-walk arnd
-went to compass to meet pohyee
-went to plaza to see priv and his friends
-walked home with pohyee and gavin
next lets talk about the things i noticed today
-I AM BROKE..DAMN BROKE!!!

alright i guess my list has ended and i am going to crash soon so nitez everyone:)


no words cn show how much i love u..all i hope for is u realise my true love and say yes
till than i got no option but to wait..its a sweet toture
s u will always be the person in my heart<3

Had match today at republic poly..and the facilities there are super cool..esp the changing room..we won 4-3 and i was home arnd 12. slept till 7 and went to find monkey gang.chit chat a while and was home aft dinner wif them.. mt intensive strts tmr!!!! shit. gonna be toturing esp wif the type of ppl in class

End of mye....but no yeay:( mt o levels is in a weeks time and aft tht gt 2 prelims!! and o level!! haiz....had sci practical today,chem was okay but flopped physics and i saw the letter T as a letter V and hence i got my whole graph looking like fuck..slaughtered..tmr is holiday in which plan to go gym...n i my next game is at rp soccer field(how cool is that!!) on sunday..have to clear the equations in my mind n dig out the soccer knowledge soon..


c.j.e.s is super loved

Today maths was 2 1/2 hours of hell for me..i really think is time i get serious wif maths,have been slacking in maths for 4 years ready n i really think i shud get serious abt it...geog paper was relatively okay but i had studied rivers n coast the previous nite(nt really study) and as planned i did the section on that but aft lookin at the next section on vegetations i found tht to be easier ..hence i made a last minute change. hope it doesnt backfire..tmr is physics and it ends at 915=)cool right..haha,might be going out wif classmates aft paper tmr...anyway is time to revise, nitez=)

back to school



today was an holiday which i was suppose to use for studying but guess wat? i went to play soccer at the cage with priv,enwei,alex,iskandar and gang.. was suppose to meet them at 830 bt i woke up at 845 cuz i came home late the previous nite..so had no choice bt to go there myself,we played till 2 b4 heading down to cp to have our lunch and we were ALL dead tired.went to LJS with yat,shaheer and priv. msged her on my way home bt she was as busy as usual so didnt wana bother her, bus-ed home and doze off aft a shower..i guess i must be starting with my revison soon..shall be back whenever..tc:)



with you my life will be complete,without u it is lifeless, but u just dun realise the hell i am suffering wanting u

c.j.e.s no matter what i still love you