can anyone tell me the real meaning of life??

i seem to be losing everything,ok maybe i am choosing to lose it so that i can stop toturing myself and more impt those who do care for me. ok i noe i sound emoish and girlish but than i really do not know if wat i did was right or wrong.
nvm the fact that she does not love me or does not find anything in me worthy of loving. i find everything worthy about her..so lets just put it as mine is a one sided love and i assure myself that this one sided love is going to stay wif me for a long long time.
nw that this matter is down.. the next problem is i lost half my friends.. i do treasure them but i guess the way they live and the way i live are diff. it just doesnt match, maybe wat i did was the best fr us..but just rmb guys,we might nt be able to get together again but than nth cn erase wat we did when we were together! wish u all the best.maybe one day i might cross path with u all. all i can do is write it down but i wish there could be something that will erase this burden in my heart but till that day when that miracle happens this burden will be in a place called my heart..i guess this will be and hope this will be the last time i am emo..its time to change path


the time for change has arrived